In June I wrote another post that I titled "Escape" in which I talked about not being able to escape the reality I found myself in. I talked about no matter how much I wanted to leave I couldn't. However, that simply wasn't true. What I needed was to change my mindset. What I needed... Continue Reading →
There’s No Right Way
We all face difficult moments in our lives. Some last for simply that - a moment. Others last for far longer than we would care for them to. However, each person handles situations differently. Each person processes, reacts, reflects differently. When someone is going through something, it is so easy to judge and say "this... Continue Reading →
Taking Necessary Steps
"I guess we get a divorce." Those six words, uttered while sitting in the marriage counselors office, are forever burned into my memory. Those words - words that could never be taken back - marked the turning point. I knew then that I had lost him - no matter how long I held out hope;... Continue Reading →
The Lotus Flower
The meaning of the lotus flower holds such power because it can offer hope and strength to people struggling in their daily lives. It is a symbol that shows that no matter where you start off in life and no matter what you're going through, you have the ability to rise above, overcome all negativity... Continue Reading →
Un-niversary
Today is my wedding anniversary. Legally, technically, still on paper I am married. Today I have been married for 10 years. On this day, 10 years ago, I stood in front of hundreds of family and friends (literally) in the church I was raised in and married my husband. On this day, 10 years ago,... Continue Reading →
Escape
So often I seek escape from this life that has become mine. But there's no real place to escape to. I seek escape from the thoughts that swirl inside my head. I seek escape from the feeling of unease that follows me. I can go outside into the open air and it can still feel... Continue Reading →
In Limbo
One of the hardest parts about divorce is the waiting. Waiting for a final decision from your partner (hoping the nightmare isn't real); waiting for the paperwork; waiting for the court system; waiting to hear back during negotiations; waiting to heal. The waiting means it's hard to know how to feel. The waiting means that... Continue Reading →
It’s Okay To Not Be Okay
I still struggle. There are times I still feel lost. There are times I still feel like I'm drowning. There are still times my brain goes numb and I forget how to think. There are times still times I wake up and don't remember where I am. There are still times the emptiness of the... Continue Reading →
Rediscovering Yourself
Any time someone experiences a tragedy or a major change in life, it significantly affects the way they view the world and their place in it. A change that is so significant brings about all kinds of feelings - a wide range of feelings and emotions that you could never in your life have imagined... Continue Reading →
Keeping Perspective
Back in January I wrote about having a new perspective as I create a new life and try to learn what this new life means for me. "We" have officially hit the one year mark since the words were spoken that my husband loved someone else and he thought we should get a divorce. "We"... Continue Reading →
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