One of the hardest parts about divorce is the waiting. Waiting for a final decision from your partner (hoping the nightmare isn't real); waiting for the paperwork; waiting for the court system; waiting to hear back during negotiations; waiting to heal. The waiting means it's hard to know how to feel. The waiting means that... Continue Reading →
Navigating the Unexpected Course
Hills. I hate them. I haven't come across too many people who actually enjoy them. The past three races that I have participated in have all ended up having some pretty major hills. Hills that I didn't expect to be there. Here in the wonderful Midwest, because of all of the rain we've gotten, the... Continue Reading →
Kacey Musgraves – Rainbow
A little while ago, a friend of mine shared with me this song. I wanted to share it today for whoever needs it...myself included. 🙂 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6OFv566mj7s
It Doesn’t Stop Being Difficult
I'm lost and I'm not sure how to find myself. I'm lost and I'm not sure where the search should begin. I feel myself spiraling again. I feel myself disappearing again. The darkness overwhelmes. There's distance between us....except when there isn't. A single interaction can drag me back down. A single look still has the... Continue Reading →
A Change of Scenery
Why is it when we change our scenery we can get a better perspective? What is it about physically changing our location that can compeltely change our mindsets? Can give us the clarity that we've been looking for? That we've been needing? What is it about changing our physical space that allows us to change... Continue Reading →
Lessons I’ve Learned from Running
Throughout this past year, possibly for even longer than that, I've come to realize that our every day lives are just a race that we are running. I can't find a better analogy for life than running. I think this is because no matter how many people are around you, positive or negative, running (and... Continue Reading →
It’s Okay To Not Be Okay
I still struggle. There are times I still feel lost. There are times I still feel like I'm drowning. There are still times my brain goes numb and I forget how to think. There are times still times I wake up and don't remember where I am. There are still times the emptiness of the... Continue Reading →
Rediscovering Yourself
Any time someone experiences a tragedy or a major change in life, it significantly affects the way they view the world and their place in it. A change that is so significant brings about all kinds of feelings - a wide range of feelings and emotions that you could never in your life have imagined... Continue Reading →
In Case of Emergency
This past weekend I ran another 5K. However this time, the "safe" route of the road race wasn't as safe as we all expected it to be. This time, a car was allowed to pass through the barrier near our turn around point and that driver ended up hitting another runner. It has certainly been... Continue Reading →
Never Have I Ever…
It's been just about a year since I realized that my marriage was truly over. It's been just about a year since I heard the words, "I love her...I guess we get a divorce." And during that time there have been many more realizations - revelations - that have come: Never have I ever thought... Continue Reading →
time of my life 